The reason I cry...

Its amazing as I sit here once again crying, and I think about that only two weeks ago I stood here broken and hurt and I didn't think I could put the pieces back together. Then I thought about the time before when I was in one of my darkest hours and I came here because I had nothing and mo where to go, I sat here week after week crying, I never thought I would ever be whole or happy again. The more and more I came and the more I gave my life over to God, the more peaceful I became until one day I was standing here crying, but they were tears of joy for the peace I had in my heart. Now just two weeks later I am standing here yet again crying tears of joy because yet again God took that pain away from my heart. At the time of your pain, while you are going through the storm, when your heart is breaking, you can't see the sun , you think of how bad your hurting and you don't see a end in sight. I am here to tell you that if you give it to God, if you let it go, the pain will go away and the sun will shine again. I put out my heart each and every day, I write about my happiness and yes I write about my pain so that you can see yes, you can be at your lowest point but if you have faith, God will turn it around for you. And each and every time, life throws something at you, you will able able to get up faster and become stronger, because you know the stronger your faith, the bigger the blessing. No one said this faith walk was a piece of cake, that once you turn your life over to God, everything was going to be all roses and smooth sailing, no that is when the real work is going to come in, the work of how much do you believe? How strong is your faith? If you don't get your prayers answered right away , will still have faith? No, I didn't think this was going to happen to me, I thought I went through enough in my life, but when it did happen, it only made my faith stronger, the first thing I did was pray, pray to help me get through this, pray that he would take the anger away and pray for the person who hurt me, because he truly needed Gods help. And guess what? Two weeks later I am here to tell you, I am crying at church because I have found my peace, I have the joy back in my heart and I know I am the child of the most high God and that no weapon formed against me will prosper. I know he has big, big plans for me. So when I got asked to be a guest speaker at a singles conference to tell others about the warning signs of being single and how you must listen to Gods voice if this is the one for you, I knee beyond a shadow of a doubt, this was another lesson I needed to learn and get through so that I may keep going and keep inspiring others. Last night after a wonderful day of praise, a incredible lunch with people I truly love, a nap and a long bike ride around my lake, some one on one time doing yoga and connecting with the earth and my creator, I turned on my music, my lights, I sat in my back yard listening to the sounds of my fountains and the birds, I grilled up some dinner and I danced and sang in my peaceful space, truly enjoying being me and being alone. I am happy with me, I am at peace again and I feel joy in my heart. Will there be more trails in my life , yes that I sure of but am I worried, No not at all, I know I have God beside me, its all good and getting better and better with each day. So don't lose faith, don't think this pain will ever end, I am living proof if you believe, if you truly believe all things are possible!