The mind is an incredible thing

Your mind is a incredible thing, it can do so many amazing things when you learn how to control it. It can shut down when your not ready to deal with things, when I was raped my mom told me to forget it ,never speak of it again and so I listened, I put in in the back of my mind and I never went back to that dark place. Of course it will manifest in other parts of your life,in my case drinking and drugs to keep in tightly in there. Your mind can make you do things you never thought you could do, like jumping out of a plane or when I did a marathon at 49 and I was a lousy swimmer, but I told myself and I tell all of you you can do whatever you set your mind to and look happened, I finished 3rd in my age group! It also helped me through my 24 year marriage, I would lay in the tub or lay in my bed and imagine my new life , imagine how happy I was, I could see it, feel it just as if I was there!This was a real world to me. I also used it to pretend I was happy for all those years I practiced so my girls wouldn't know how I was dying inside.I shut my mind off of how unhappy I was. Yes the mind can even do some horrible things as well, like making you believe your own lies,you really believe that they are true, even when you get caught in them time and time again. It allows people to do things to others and believing that it was the other persons fault, so they need not take responsibility for their own actions. Like thinking they did nothing wrong when they cause hurt and destruction in another's life.They truly believe everyone is out to get them, that they are the innocent party. Yesterday I had decided that all that had just happened to me I needed to free myself of, I didn't want to be an angry, bitter person and so I fasted and I prayer and I set my mind to forgive and let go of all these emotions, to get what I needed to learn out of this and throw the rest away. And so I have... this will be an non existence in my life.I will no longer give it life or put my emotions into something that doesn't bring me peace or happiness. Yes the mind is truly an incredible thing but its up to you how you want to use it.