Waiting with baited breath Part 1

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Waiting with baited breath Part 1

It's been along time coming, the published version of my book. It took a year of my life, of my sweat and definitely a lot of my tears to write about my life. To expose my deepest, darkest secrets, to put out my fears, my weakness, my failures and my love on paper for the while world to see.

And while I am scared to see what the world has to say about it, what scared me most was what the man I wrote the book about would say.

And so when we reconnect this weekend and I gave him my first published, autographed copy, I  waited with baited breath for him to read it.
I waited for his reaction as most of the book has to do with him, he has been in my life for as long as I can remember and it was him who got me to remember who I was when I had lost my soul and my way.

What he thought about what I wrote, about our lives is dearly important to me. I wrote my truth, I was brutally honest but I know sometimes the truth hurts and hurting him is the last thing I would ever want to do.

Yet my story needed to be told, to help others out there in that dark place, people without hope, thinking they are alone, this is for them to let them know I've been there, I done it, and facing the fear and moving on is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. So no matter what, I had to fulfill God's purpose for me,this was the testimony, I received from the test I went through.

All of the hurt and pain, all of the tears, every night when I cried in the bathtub, trying to drown my sorrows with alcohol and pills, crying myself to sleep, praying to a god I didn't believe in, to take my life. All of the loss I had had, all of my loved ones that I have lost, all of this was for a reason, all of this was a lesson I had to learn to be in this place of peace and joy I am in now. I now know all of this was "The Blessing in Disguise "

So today my friends, I wait with baited breath to see what one of the most important people in my life will say about my book. I only hope that him and the others I wrote about will know I wrote from a place of truth, my truth... and all of you should live your truth, each and every day because the truth will set you free!
**stay tuned to part 2 tomorrow **

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