pursuing your purpose

I talk a lot about pursuing your purpose I feel that it is your God given gift and this is what you are called to do. I remember 2 years ago at Louise Hay's You can do it conference with my best friend Melva,she turned and looked at me and said "I see you on the stage doing this" I looked at her like she has lost her mind, I could ever do that but she said "You have some thing to stay, you have a story to tell people, can I see you doing it" It only takes a spark to start a fire that was the spark that started the fire in me. I thought about it and the more I thought the more it seemed possible, I still thought about my fear of public speaking, in college I took a class for that I wanted to puke every time it was my turn o give my speech, I sweated, my legs got shaky, I thought I would pass out, so how could I even entertain the thought of a public speaker? Same way I got over my fear of heights, I jumped out of a plane, yup, cured that! I would worry about it when it came to that, but for now I started thinking about it, I wanted to help others, there was a reason I went through all I went through, I wanted to inspire others and this was a perfect way to do that. So I put it on my vision board, I envisioned it while I was mediating, I saw it just as real as if I was doing it, I prayed on it and I started my blog to get one step closer to this dream. I wasn't ready then, God knew it, I didn't , I again wanted it to come now,but I wasn't done learning my lessons, I needed to find myself more, I needed to know I could do this on my own, I was still in this horrible marriage , I couldn't tell people how great life could be when I didn't know myself. I started writing my blog to talk to others about starting to take your power back (I knew about that) to have faith, to believe even when you are in your darkest hour(I definitely knew that) It wasn't until I walked away knowing I would be fine, knowing I had faith in a God I could not see but knew that he would take care of me, that he saw that I was ready , he knew when I let go of the anger and hate, he knew when I forgave my ex and owned what I did, he knew when I would spill my guts in my blog so that I may help someone else who was in that dark place, he knew my heart, my purpose as he gave me this gift. It was then he opened doors for me, I did a few testimonies at church, my voice cracked, my knees shook, I felt like I was dying but I did it, then I was asked to give announcements on a Sunday, Hello! I worship at the Faith Center formerly the Sunrise Musical Theater, packed house, Omg, I was scared, but I thought you are getting me ready so I will do this. I then got asked to speak at a singles conference, still nervous but getting better. Well yesterday as a speaker at a domestic violence conference, I finally knew my purpose, sitting on that stage, I knew what my friend said to me 2 years ago and this had came to pass. I wasn't nervous, I was me, I made people laugh, I made people gasp, I think some people cried, I told of what got me through and how peace and joy were in my life now. I was confident in my purpose, I felt my gift at its full potential. Afterwards so many people came to me and told me how much my story touched them, how my courage was inspiring! I was blown away, it made me cry. Wow this is what I put out there so long ago, this is my purpose beyond a shadow of a doubt, this is it! Do I have any doubt that this book is going to be a New York Times bestseller? Absolutely not! Will I be on stages and my big, big dream on the Women of Faith tour, telling hundreds of thousands of women how anything is possible if you have faith, if you put it out there, if you work hard and if you believe, oh yes I believe that it is all possible and more! So today my friends, I must give thanks once again to God and knowing better than I when I was ready and to my best friend Melva for starting that spark and always believing in me, even when I didn't believe in myself. I Love you girlfriend! Remember we are here to uplift each other, to inspire, to give hope and encouragement when we down, this is all of our purpose in this life. So dream big!! Help a friend dream big today and never stop believing! I would like to thank all of the wonderful women who invited me to speak it was a honor and a blessing. Www.treadmilltreats.wordpress.com