Ok I am just human...

If you follow me,you know I post everything,the good ,the bad and the ugly because it is my hope that someone out there is in the place that I was in andttht maybe just maybe I might be able to give them hope or encouragment or strength to go on or better yet change their situation this is why I write every day,this is why I went through all the pain,the tears,the heartache so that I may be able to share my testimony with others,this is my purpose in life ! And so when I tell you my testimony,I want to not sugar coat anything so you will not think this will be a cake walk, it so isn't but nothing you want bad enough is going to be easy,you will have to work hard and yes there will be set back one step forward two steps backwards. You must see the finish line ,you must see your goal,your life as you want it ,you must fight for it! and on days like this (I am talking to myself here ) you must admit you are human and as much as you try ,you can still hurt and still cry out "why must this be so unfair?" and fall on your knees and ask for help to say you can't do this on your own that you need help and you need that help NOW . When you think why is this so unfair,haven't I endured so much pain why more? I pray and I listen " if you believe follow me " " let go and let god" I hear so I pick myself up ,I dust myself off and I let it go because I know ,I believe ,I have incrediable faith that it will all work out. I am a child of the most high god and I know he has greater plans for me that I could ever have for myself. I also know he on his time will take care of these who are against me . So I tell you all of this to let you know there will be days like these but what you do after is what is important,are you going to wallow in self pity "oh why me " or are you going to say ok I had my moment it is over and I know the best revenge is living a life full of joy and peace do not let that "devil" steal your joy! That is worth all the money in the world!