Sick faith

Sick Faith

That's what I call my faith, "Sick faith." I called it that because my faith is so strong, nothing can shake it!

I had a lot of time while I was writing my soon to be "New York Times bestseller" to reflect over my life and my faith.

I thought about it again as I wrote about the time I was raped. Or when my dad died, when my mom had cancer, when I had to have an abortion. All of this happened within 6 months, all while I was 15. 

When I was at one of the lowest points in my life, when he pulled me from death's hands as I tried to take my life. I thought about when I was so into drugs and booze that I would wake up in my own vomit on the floor more times than I care to remember. Then I turned it over to him and he took it from me.

When I was dying in my marriage. When I never thought I could make it on my own, when I lost my job and then he gave me my business. I know how my faith got me through my dad and my best friend dying in the same week and then soon after my mom. How it got me through my divorce, and my getting nothing, it was my sick faith that got me through it all.

I gave it to God, and I let go. There was nothing I could do. My problems were way too big for me to handle, so I just turned it over him.

He took care of it all. He gave me peace and joy. He put a calmness in my life that I've never known.

So some of you skeptics might say "Well why did he put you in those spots in the first place? It was his fault."

Look, just because I am a Christian doesn't mean you magically have no problems. No, it usually means you have more because there is always something or someone trying to test your faith.

I know that I am not perfect, and I will never be because I am human. There are days when I want it faster, when I wonder if I didn't I go through enough already? But then I know I have faith. I know it is coming because he said it is. I know that the things that happen are either there to test my sick faith or to teach me a lesson. I know that I must go through them, that my season, my best season is coming and I must be patient.

You might be wondering why I always refer to my book as a New York Times Bestseller because that is what is going to happen. I have no doubt, see sick faith? I know I will be writing full time because I know this is the purpose God has given me.

I have no doubts, I have no stress and no fear about my future. I know what is coming, and if it's God's will, that life may throw a few more curve balls, so be it, my sick faith will help me get back up. It will help dust myself off and get right back to living and believing.

So today, my friends try to inspire to be a believer in sick faith. I had a great teacher, my Bishop Henry Fernandez. He has more faith than anyone I have ever met. I am inspired to have his faith, but until then, I will work on my sick faith every day. 

You can have it too. All you have to do is believe and…

"Be the change you want to see"

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