What it means to be a mother

What it means to me to be a mother.

So if you know me or you follow me, you know that I've always wanted to be a mother since I was a little girl. I remember when I was 18, and my doctor told me that I needed to have a hysterectomy due to my endometriosis.

I remember going into a deep depression and thinking there is no way. I was gonna have a child, and even if I had to have a child without being married, then I would. I chose not to listen to this doctor, and obviously, I didn't have a hysterectomy.

Years later, while I was married, the doctors once again told me I would never be able to have children. Again, I didn't listen because I still believed that I was going to be a mother. So we kept trying, and yes, God is good and blessed me with a child. But trust and believe this was not an easy pregnancy, but I was going to do whatever I could to be a mother. Even though I had to be on bed rest for 4 months, I did it. 

When I got pregnant the 2nd time, it was not any easier. They found out that I had a cyst growing with my baby and had to have surgery while I was pregnant. They also told me it would only be a 3% chance that my baby would make it. I held on to my faith, even though I was on bed rest yet again for 7 months. 

I did what I had to to bring my miracle baby into this world. She made her appearance on Cinco De Mayo, a day for celebration. 

Being a mother was the best thing that ever happened to me. I remember spending every minute with them. I baked cookies with them, I was room mom in their school every year. I was in the PTA, and I volunteered in their school every week. 

Every summer break in the last week of the summer, I would let them pick what they wanted to do for that whole week and spend that whole week with them doing whatever was on their wish list. I took them to parks, to the beach, and rode bikes with them. I even learned how to surf and do karate with them because they wanted me to. There was nothing and still nothing that I would not do for these two girls.

So today, my friends, my advice to you is hold on to your dream, don't let anyone, not even the doctors tell you that it can not happen. I love the story my Bishop tells all the time. Him and his wife waited 16 years when everyone told them to give up. They still had faith, and yes, God blessed them with not one but two boys. All they did was keep believing.

All I can tell you is that this love for my girls is what it means to be a mother, and every single day, I am truly blessed to be their mom. 

"Be the change you want to see"

@TreadmillTreats