Who am I? I'm every women part 2

Who am I? I'm every women part 2

Yesterday I wrote about an ex coming at me on my birthday recently. He said somethings I had to analyze and I have come to this conclusion about the question he asked me.

He said "I don't even know who are you...one minute your Superwoman and the next your Tinkerbell...one second your strong and independent and the next you act helpless...so who are you?"

Well I had sometime to answer you and here it is...
I am all of these people.

Yes, I am Superwoman...
I have to be. I am a single mom trying to support two girls with no back up plan.
I have a business and a mortgage. I'm back in school, I have girls in college and bills to pay. I have no one to depend on but me.

I am also Tinkerbell...
I believe in happily ever after. I believe in things impossible, in true love, in the good in people's heart. Yes, I will always have that childlike sense of wonder and hope.

I am tough....
Because I've been hurt so many times. I've been used, lied to, disappointed more times than I want to admit. So yes, there is a toughness about me, it's my shield, it keeps me on guard and on my toes.

I am soft as well....
I am still willing to open my heart even after it's been stomped on over and over.
I still see the best in people, I still give more chances than deserved. I still want someone to hold me and tell me it will be okay.

I am independent...
Yes, because for so many years I depended on a man to provide everything in my life including my self worth or lack there of.
I allowed him to take over everything in my life including my self esteem, my independence and who I was inside.
I raise my hand, I allowed this and now I know who I am. So now I feel like, I got this...I don't need anyone...I pay my own bills, I do it all myself because I am afraid to give over total control to someone.

I am vulnerable....
I am willing to give over control to someone who proves himself worthy of it. I will have to know that we are equally yoked, that God has brought us together and only then I will be okay with that.

I am strong....
Yes, I've been through a lot in my life. I survived loss after loss, rape, suicide attempts and a drug addiction. I survived a verbally abusive marriage for 24 years. I survived things that would have killed or broke others and I am still here, still standing, still fighting.

I am weak....
Because I cry, sometimes I am overwhelmed and can't see the end of the rainbow I talk about so often. I want to crawl under the blankets and give up at times.

I am funny....
I love life and live my life large. I can laugh at myself and laugh with others. I crack jokes all the time and I know life is too short not to have fun.

I am sad...
I get down, I am human, I had so many losses in my life and I always wonder why. I get disappointed in people when they don't have my heart.

I am a realist...
I know there is no perfect people, I saw what people who say they love you will do to your heart. They will stomp on it and walk away and hurt you to your core.

I am a romantic...
I still believe in gentlemen, I believe there is a Prince Charming out there just for me. I believe in soul mates and true love.

I am all of these women... I can not pick and choose...
It is all of me...
My response is either you love all of me or not. Either you take me for all my different sides or you don't. I can't change who my heart is.
So to answer your question who am I? I am every women.

"Be the change you want to see"
 
"And just when the caterpillar thought his life over...he turned into a beautiful butterfly"

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